T-1 Day and I'm Really Starting to Get Nervous

If I could describe my current feelings in one word, it would be "unprepared."  Though I could make a very long list of good things that I have done to get ready for this trip, it's the very long list of things I have one day left to do before leaving (a few should have been done a month ago), that are starting to worry me. 

--Buy boots for David and myself (we were hoping for some used ones, but the building is too full for us to get to them, and even then, we don't know if they would fit, so...buying)

--Buy gloves to take with us

--Get our Tetanus shots (we have appointments at the Health Department tomorrow, since David had to go for his TB test results anyway)

--Scrounge up and pack trash bags, Vitamin E, and David a hat. 

--File all relevant documents in our carry-on bags

--Finish packing toiletries, last-minute list check, journals, etc.

But honestly, as scary as these things are to me right now, a few other things are scaring me as well.  Like the fact that, besides our team leader and my husband, I know zero of our other members by name.  And spiritually, I haven't exactly been on top of preparing to serve either.  I didn't even know we were supposed to start the journals LWI sent us to be working on until yesterday.  And while some of it I can blame on the fact that my husband and I have been living out of a shared suitcase for the past two weeks, some of it is just my own fault for not making this a priority. 

However, at the same time, I see the grace of God on this trip, despite me more than thorough me.  He has provided in many ways, giving David the opportunity to go, providing financially, and preparing us through other avenues as well.  Last night, David was going through the journal, and it suggested as a preparation that we go through our closet and get rid of a bag of clothing we don't need.  It had suggested it for last Monday, the same day David took 7 or 8 bags of our un-needed items to Goodwill.  (We have to downsize significantly to fit in a 1-bedroom apartment when we get back)

We'll see what the next 48 hours bring.  I hope it involves sleep, but I'm beginning to doubt it.  I know it will involve God being sovereign and gracious.  I hope it involves me being gracious, too.  Starting with myself, and then with everyone else as well.